Sleep messed up again
Its difficult when immense sadness sets in, you are lonely and not near extended family. I haven't been feeling very well lately so didn't make it to the gym the last three days. I've been crying a lot lately and wish I could stop it. I go in and out of pockets of doing school work because I'm forced to -- but this is no way to be learning. Sometimes I feel theres not much to living anymore and that my life has become an existence. My children care so much for me and I for them, I hate when they see me this sad. I hope that things will get better in time.